That day, when I was told sharp
Life is all about colors,
And meaningless without -
I was all black and white.

Somebody,I don't remember who
Wisely fixed me up with some glue
And, then painted me a color
That was blended deep,dark blue
Now, I ain't no black and white
But that doesn't makes things right
No color lives long with these clouds
And there's no limit to paint the sky.
I was better with no color,before
When life was all black and white
At least,I used to feel happy then
Around,my hopes that behold all bright.
~ Shashi Raj Pandey

Under the sun -
I kept gazing all day
Bright though,
My surreal dream;
Out of nothing
Peeks me this way
I ignore!
It sinks under somehow
Into a self-pasted epidermis;
Hopes.
These are nothing ,but
Late layers of unwelcomed relationships
I laugh human a little then after
Well practiced - may it be
A day without sun
It's an odd life to live.
~ Shashi Raj Pandey

And,because it was not
As easy as once thought
Why crippled-it broke away
Then slowly laughed ,and lost
These shattered smile - mine
No smooth chase ; no kind
What life is after all , but
O' my unconscious mind.
~

Blind - albeit ,
A balance for promises to keep.
An obscure understanding,
Without gravity to hold
And fix your weight
Into the ground.
A realization,however life-
So far to go.But
My steps take nowhere
From here.
At this point of confusion,
I'm jumping off on things
Some stupid statement
And,blank narratives I don't know.
"Nothing makes sense ! "
Probably,
The only thing that stays
When you are fragile
From within.
~ Shashi Raj Pandey

An oddly mapped story;
Have you ever felt this way
My hostages -
Your expectations all over
Someday,
How I wish so,
I could deceive easily
A small act of "socialization"
In my head.
A sacred journey to solitude
Long away.
But,- that show is over now!
Never mind
We have some more time here.And
I've another synopsis to offer;
An oddly mapped story-
My life.
~ Shashi Raj Pandey

Entangled within,
Life has been strange these days
And,without any direction
Incomprehensible-
It's slightest appearance;
A mirage of desperation
To grow.
Well crafted ,
From the very beginning
Rooted thoughts are these
About-
To be or, not to be
I can only hope;
It won't last long though,
Above mere sophistication
There' d be something sparkling.
~ Shashi Raj Pandey

Whose laughter are these,sound so high?
Given,or some rambling words picked by
Why to be the one - you adore so well
As long as 'you' are, just be yourself.
~

With little curdle
I have sheltered myself
A day, a week or some months
I don't know
Might life slap such blow -
No can stand
I see clouds without silver linings;
They do glow though
Someway,
I feel wrapped tight today
And my soul offers wrinkled love
But some greens ,
And blue and colors I'd show
With a glimpse of your smile
In my head , In my head !
Before the end,
Let's not live a farewell
It's then miracle happens
Against all odds.
~ Shashi Raj Pandey

I fear,
I see nowhere around
And,these lift overs-
An abstract realms of gravity
How far is to go ?
Is there some place to know??
Beyond this-
A rambling man I have been
But please,
It's never a trivial space
Of failures ; and glories-
There's much more to concede
You can't run free
With your tamed thoughts
Stay awake;
Until you find your own way
~ Shashi Raj Pandey

Someday,I'll be here again
To behold these colored boats of joy
Floating silky ;like clouds
In the deep blue sky
Out of nowhere
I can feel it still-
This lake is no dark
Hanging trees,
A big chunk of mud - in between
And greens all around
As far as my eyes can see
Well,you can only tell me then
This grown is all that's greed in me
Or,may be,
You've a little less than me
And for years,and years it'll be like this
You know,
I'd threw it all -
But,
I've lived some golden lights
And may it be ,
May it be with you a slight
Someday.
~ Shashi Raj Pandey

I beg,please
A bit of your laughter
Looking at my insane face-
These tangled hairs in my head
And broken tooth no white;
They are brushed since years!
In a way.
I'm rooted you won't find
Upon something you'll never mind
Be dazzled sometimes.
I beg,please
A moment of your hatred
With my shots upon this life;
Old,yet I hold upon nothing bright
Broken all I see- or,at least something mean
May it'll live with me;like for you it has been
I beg,please
I'm way too light to be buried under
Too heavy with no gravity over
May I fall deep down one day
Or will go blind in my heyday
To the sky-
I beg, please.

~ Shashi Raj Pandey

And there it is;everyday
A beautiful swing of hope
It will raise you up
Early morning,
That first golden ray
You won't believe-it will pierce!
Deep into millions of cells,and
Countless atoms
Underneath your skin.
This much,
You might have forgotten
But no more,please drop it
We all live with some prejudices
Bounded with our innate blind perceptions
"My sincere respect!"
But no more,
Be tingled with happiness
Live it!
Nothing more is there to worry about
As this single day,
It'll lift you up as high-
And as near to the sky;you can have it all!
In every moment,
Try to feel that air above
And,
Never forget to dive deep below
Everyday.
~ Shashi Raj Pandey

Free yourself,
When you grow-
Out of that bounded space
Might happen to be an unconscious one
Like,'You are safe in here'
And reach out there;
Far away your comfort zone
Just take a daring step
One,you should've taken long ago
Live free!
This air will never be the same
Then.It won't-keep that!
It's not your fault!
Can it ever be?
Never keep it inside.Or,
Let that drown you within
Reach out far-somewhere
Into unlimited possibilities
There's magic all around,
Minding some beautiful chances
And your heart.
~ Shashi Raj Pandey

Never mind,
This is just another bad day
And you've lived it all-
Times like this
A realization—
They drive you long
And,miles and miles to go
From here.
This can't be the only way
It can't be the only place to go
Just hold your faith-
Believe.
Keep your heart alive.
No wrong in that!
Do admire such innocence
After all,
Goodness is everywhere;
If you can feel
Almost,
Near to every little smile
Is a soft glow of melancholy
No wrong in that!
Keep smiling anyway
That makes things easy
Above all,
For many of us.
~ Shashi Raj Pandey

Gravity;
I've my own fear
Of being pulled down
And raised above.
"You know me"
In my heart,
I've nothing as named 'growth'
To reach
Just a soft desire
"To be a child again"
For a kind walk-
Selfless,that will drive
Far somewhere;
I don't know
And,one day
I'll swing on happiness
A smile with your face
And no else but goodness
In all loving eyes around-
It will stay.
Well ,that's my only dream,
And for all.
~ Shashi Raj Pandey

For tomorrow I have to leave home again
And,how long one can live with choice?
But please-you don't put me a name
Today,I have no sun above my head
Just a little bit of grown melancholy
That's all.
And my naive thoughts,
Is this a last day now?
No!Then why is such fear
"I can't share!" - I feel weak
You know.
Well,
Are all reasons legit,
To keep it all clear also
Amidst a pregnant pause;
The only choosen
I know nothing but silence-
In my heart.

~ Shashi Raj Pandey

Past few days;
A letter full of medicines
Narrates a cold story.
I've bought my own disease.
~

On my way home,everyday
These long rounds of bus ride
Four wheels;and so many two legged
All,running talks about this and that
In their own charm-I feel alone
with a cold occupied corner seat every time
Left unloved,the way things are these days
I need air!
But that fear,
I will never reach home
Sooner
Why it makes no sense to me
Altogether,right now.
Well,these droplets-softly tickling
From above knows better
Life has been some toughest climb
So far
But,
That's why my window seat!
~ Shashi Raj Pandey

रहरै रहरमा
यस्तो रोग पालेको छु
मन भित्र,
डर लाग्छ आफ्नै सोचहरू ।
कुन बाटो हिँड्नु छ र ?
पुग्नु कता सपना एक
जति बढ्छन्
पाउहरू,
अघि भन्दा पछी लाग्छ
तब,
निकै पर लागिएछ हुन्छु
सम्झदा पो यात्रा-अनी
कोश कति चले जस्तो
सोच्छु,
आफु छोडिएछु
रहरै रहरमा-
यस्तो रोग पालेको छु
मन भित्र ।
~ Shashi Raj Pandey