That day, when I was told sharp
Life is all about colors,
And meaningless without -
I was all black and white.

Somebody,I don't remember who
Wisely fixed me up with some glue
And, then painted me a color
That was blended deep,dark blue
Now, I ain't no black and white
But that doesn't makes things right
No color lives long with these clouds
And there's no limit to paint the sky.
I was better with no color,before
When life was all black and white
At least,I used to feel happy then
Around,my hopes that behold all bright.
~ Shashi Raj Pandey

Under the sun -
I kept gazing all day
Bright though,
My surreal dream;
Out of nothing
Peeks me this way
I ignore!
It sinks under somehow
Into a self-pasted epidermis;
Hopes.
These are nothing ,but
Late layers of unwelcomed relationships
I laugh human a little then after
Well practiced - may it be
A day without sun
It's an odd life to live.
~ Shashi Raj Pandey

And,because it was not
As easy as once thought
Why crippled-it broke away
Then slowly laughed ,and lost
These shattered smile - mine
No smooth chase ; no kind
What life is after all , but
O' my unconscious mind.
~

Blind - albeit ,
A balance for promises to keep.
An obscure understanding,
Without gravity to hold
And fix your weight
Into the ground.
A realization,however life-
So far to go.But
My steps take nowhere
From here.
At this point of confusion,
I'm jumping off on things
Some stupid statement
And,blank narratives I don't know.
"Nothing makes sense ! "
Probably,
The only thing that stays
When you are fragile
From within.
~ Shashi Raj Pandey

An oddly mapped story;
Have you ever felt this way
My hostages -
Your expectations all over
Someday,
How I wish so,
I could deceive easily
A small act of "socialization"
In my head.
A sacred journey to solitude
Long away.
But,- that show is over now!
Never mind
We have some more time here.And
I've another synopsis to offer;
An oddly mapped story-
My life.
~ Shashi Raj Pandey

Entangled within,
Life has been strange these days
And,without any direction
Incomprehensible-
It's slightest appearance;
A mirage of desperation
To grow.
Well crafted ,
From the very beginning
Rooted thoughts are these
About-
To be or, not to be
I can only hope;
It won't last long though,
Above mere sophistication
There' d be something sparkling.
~ Shashi Raj Pandey

Whose laughter are these,sound so high?
Given,or some rambling words picked by
Why to be the one - you adore so well
As long as 'you' are, just be yourself.
~

With little curdle
I have sheltered myself
A day, a week or some months
I don't know
Might life slap such blow -
No can stand
I see clouds without silver linings;
They do glow though
Someway,
I feel wrapped tight today
And my soul offers wrinkled love
But some greens ,
And blue and colors I'd show
With a glimpse of your smile
In my head , In my head !
Before the end,
Let's not live a farewell
It's then miracle happens
Against all odds.
~ Shashi Raj Pandey

I fear,
I see nowhere around
And,these lift overs-
An abstract realms of gravity
How far is to go ?
Is there some place to know??
Beyond this-
A rambling man I have been
But please,
It's never a trivial space
Of failures ; and glories-
There's much more to concede
You can't run free
With your tamed thoughts
Stay awake;
Until you find your own way
~ Shashi Raj Pandey

Someday,I'll be here again
To behold these colored boats of joy
Floating silky ;like clouds
In the deep blue sky
Out of nowhere
I can feel it still-
This lake is no dark
Hanging trees,
A big chunk of mud - in between
And greens all around
As far as my eyes can see
Well,you can only tell me then
This grown is all that's greed in me
Or,may be,
You've a little less than me
And for years,and years it'll be like this
You know,
I'd threw it all -
But,
I've lived some golden lights
And may it be ,
May it be with you a slight
Someday.
~ Shashi Raj Pandey

I beg,please
A bit of your laughter
Looking at my insane face-
These tangled hairs in my head
And broken tooth no white;
They are brushed since years!
In a way.
I'm rooted you won't find
Upon something you'll never mind
Be dazzled sometimes.
I beg,please
A moment of your hatred
With my shots upon this life;
Old,yet I hold upon nothing bright
Broken all I see- or,at least something mean
May it'll live with me;like for you it has been
I beg,please
I'm way too light to be buried under
Too heavy with no gravity over
May I fall deep down one day
Or will go blind in my heyday
To the sky-
I beg, please.

~ Shashi Raj Pandey